SENIOR YEAR-Defamation

WTH!!!!!!   If you don't like to see or hear CUSS words then YOU might NOT want to read this. I am so PISSED OFF right now that I can spit nails.

Here's how my day has went. Woke up and got kids off to school. Husband woke up and we went to work. He left around 9am or so to bring the kids to dentist appointment. My oldest got sick after the appointment so they came home and my youngest went back to school. I was at work when my oldest who is a SENIOR called me to tell me about what was going around at school. Supposely either them or another child had stolen money out of the athletic locker room. WTH???? When was this supposed to have happened? YESTERDAY WHEN PRACTICE BEGAN!!!!!!!!!  AFTER SCHOOL PRACTICE at that. MY CHILD RIDES THE SCHOOL BUS HOME AND HASN'T STAYED AFTERSCHOOL UP THERE OR BEEN IN THE LOCKER ROOM. THEY HAVE NO REASON TO BE THERE bc they are  not in athletics. They failed Algebra and  wasn't able to run Cross Country any more.They hadn't stayed up there in about 2 weeks.    I texted a few of my PEEPS at the school and told them to keep an ear out for what might be being said. I know that one of them texted me back and told me there was NO WAY that my child could have done it bc they weren't even around when the theft had occurred. MY child NO LONGER has any reason to go near the locker room bc they are not in Athletics.....Got me to thinking how it sure does seem like SOMEONE is JEALOUS of MY CHILD and are TRYING to RUIN their SENIOR YEAR. I tell you what, after what you have already put MY CHILD through these past 14 years, this is NOTHING and THEY are STRONG and will get through anything.  Why can't YOU at least let them get through one year without having to mess it up??

Not too long ago,the end of school 2012- 2013, my child came home with small tears in their eyes and told me they  wanted to give their bus driver the money they had in their savings.... ALL THEIR MONEY!! Ms. S grandbaby was sickly and the money was going to Ronald McDonald House to help the dad so he could see stay up around the baby and his wife. MY CHILD WANTED TO GIVE THIS PERSON THEY NEVER MET AND DIDN'T KNOW ALL OF THEIR  MONEY. Does this sound like someone who would steal??


Before our local nursing home shut down, he would gather up stuffed animals and bring them to the senior citizens who lived there. He felt bad bc these grandparents were more than likely forgotten about and wouldn't get anything for Christmas....He told me to take some of his Christmas to buy what ever else I could think of that they could use.  Does this sound like a BAD CHILD??


 All I ask and PRAY for is that GOD WATCHES over MY FAMILY until my child graduates in MAY and I can get them away from here. I ask and PRAY that GOD watches over US ALWAYS but a little extra at this point in my life. It is sad that my child wasn't even on school property when this was supposed to happen..........

OPEN YOUR EYES smalltown

We teach our children to be proud of who they are and the things they do, yet, when it's time to support them, people are too busy sitting in the stands gossiping about others than SUPPORTING THE TEAM. Whether winning or losing they deserve to HEAR SUPPORT from the stands, so why go if you aren't going to support them and cheer them on?
 Why do you have to ALL have loose lips? Walking around, whether we want to hear it or not, you hear the latest gossip.
Tonight, I was livid when I over heard some man talking. I would kicked his ass but I did't have the money to get me out of jail. This is how this goes......


One night on the news a week ago, there was something about 3 local area football boys from another town who were caught with Marijuana and were in trouble?? Our Highschool football team is going to play their team tomorrow night. Now this is the RUMOR and GOSSIP that is going around.
"Everyone who lives in ________ is a drug dealer or does drugs..."   WTH   I asked myself when I over heard this tonight. I have FAMILY and KNOW a lot of PEOPLE in that town and I was PISSED that someone would talk like that about MY HOME TOWN.    

When I brought my child to my mother-in-laws after the game, we sat around talking. My oldest told her about how people around here treat him and she was livid. Then when I told her what was said at the game she was on a RAMPAGE.
"Who do these PEOPLE think they are?? Do they think they are above everyone?? They need to start OPENING UP THEIR EYES!!!! BULLYING is BULLYING and it is a shame that these kids learn it from their parents. They have been like this since my family moved to this town. LOOK at all these churches around here. Every Sunday their parking lots will be so full you will not find a place to park. But any day of the week you see anyone they are snobby, rude, flippant and gossiping about someone. And to talk about DRUGS.............
There a DRUGS all in this town....There is a judge whose sister had her baby taken away bc of it. My son is sitting in jail bc of it. Kids at school are doing it. My children have come home and told me things they have heard while at school. If you want to get some???  Well, it's as easy as going to the local grocery store. I am not BLIND like some seem to be. I can tell when someone is acting funny. There have been numerous times that I have seen DRUG DEALS go on in front of and in our local grocery store. I have told the managers of said businesses about what I was seeing or had seen. They did nothing about it. Want about convenience? That's what you get at our local convenience store. Two of them are owned by the same people and have already been busted a few times for selling "BATH SALTS" & "K2". Yet, they are still open today. In fact to better help you out, they are now putting in a drive thru just for you so NO-ONE can see what you buy when you buy it.

JUDGE OTHER TOWNS you hypocritical people. Act like you are better and you have nothing to hide. I KNOW BETTER and IF YOU WOULD OPEN YOUR EYES and PAY ATTENTION, YOU WOULD know BETTER also.


dear Lord,
you know this is how I felt at times and I have needed to get some things off my mind. I am not being judge mental or gossiping. I am telling the GOD's HONEST TRUTH.
I really don't want to but I HAVE to PRAY for this town. There are some people here that are not worthy of your wrath nor mine bc they are true of heart. But I do ask that you condemn the hearts of those that go to these churches and then act like they do. YOU know how true to you my heart is bc you made me. Forgive me of my sins and forgive me for trespassing against others. Also forgive them for trespassing against me and my hometown and family.......

in JESUS name
AMEN

BREAKING NEWS from Lemonville, Texas

Breaking NEWS from Lemonville, Tx

My response to this:
just like they aren't supposed to do ALOT  of things they do around there. But when ONE HAND is rubbing the OTHER, they would screw over their BESTFRIENDS mother. They would lie to your face and would stab you in the back, the whole way claiming "I WOULD NEVE DO THAT!!!"
You don't have to worry about them talking to the minority in this town who have no money or name. To them, being one up on someone and their jealousies are just a game. They do not care how OUR town. (there are many SECRETS behind there close doors and in their families. BAD DRUGS, not talking about MaryJane, like METH and ICE are everywhere. One of the judge's from there knows about it...a member of his family has had dealings with it..Ask him....) 
There are many others that are to blame. Yet, I will not say their names. They know who they are when they read this. (Man, are they going to be pissed.) I have always kept my tongue for as long I have had been in this town. Now, here's some truthful gossip that can be SPREAD AROUND.
When you go to your local grocery store, you can get groceries and nowadays, a whole lot more. I know for when I was there I bought groceries but I always got a HUG. If they were paying attention, they would see the ones who are waiting on their drugs. There are some that are hooked on Meth. They are dying a very slow death. Then there is the one known as ICE. This one I know is NOT VERY NICE. I know this more than some others. For it helped to re-incarcerate, my only sibling and brother. Now that I have said what I had to put down. TAKE A SERIOUS LOOK ABOUT OUR TOWN.
As far as the BOND ISSUE is it REALLY FOR YOU or  IS IT FOR THE LOOKS or to get a SUPERINTENDENT who is NEW?? Someone who has never been here before and can be BUDDY-BUDDY with them behind closed doors??  To some I might come across a little jaded.   I know that there are things that need to be upgraded.  Yet  this not the time for the BOND to be passed for OUR TOWN, I write very sadly. For there are, at this moment, others who can not afford it like ME.
BUILD UP YOUR COMMUNITY AROUND/FOR ALL THE CHILDREN not just for those, who in your mind, with them you could win.  BREAK DOWN the BARRIERS and become the SMALL TOWN with the BIG HEART that your sign says. Do you want another Ms. Perez??  Who was only there for the ones with money. SHE didn't give a dang about you nor me.
PRAY with YOUR HEART and I mean LISTEN to what GOD is wanting for YOUR TOWN. Then STAND UP for what you BELIEVE in and DON'T BACK DOWN.

love, me

The Girl with the Most Beautiful SMILE

I am a mother with a daughter of my own. She's no longer a baby. She's 16 and to her almost grown. But she knows no matter what good or bad choices she had made I would always care. I know that my son a few years back, he did try It hurts my heart and has caused a little break. To think of, her life and if it, she could take. I know that my son did a few years back and my daughter said he's tried. BY THE GRACE OF GOD MY CHILD DIDN'T DIE. We don't have money or "family name" in this town But I know how people are and how they will run you down.

Dear LORD,   

This is weighing very heavy on my heart this very day. Please be with me as I do pray.
"the GIRL with the most BEAUTIFUL SMILE" is wanting to end her life. Along these 19 years she has had too much sorrow and strife. She lost her parents when she was a baby. The loss is still so powerful she's afraid to let any one in neither you or me.

In order for my ticket to heaven, I just gotta send this out to My Devin.







she is such a wonderful young person who was born with a FAMILY NAME. But now she's the blacksheep because she brought them shame. She would not conform to what her parents wanted her to be. Now she's being shunned and kept out of the shade of Her FAMILY TREE.

When she lost her parents some of my Devin's family took her in. I don't know the whole story but this is where I will begin.

Not long after having her baby, right after graduating from high school. Her family tried to take her baby away and called her a fool. They accused her of things that were false like doing drugs.
Then took her soul away without any kisses or hugs. Now she's feeling like she cannot be strong. For everytime she turns around, someone tells her she is wrong. Only she can heal the hurt from this heartbreak and go on. You do not need to take your life, dear one, for you are not alone. There are things beyo9n our control that we must go through. Through the hills and valleys OUR LORD is never far from you. I do not sit in judgement of your error or your mistakes. I am only here to help guide you and heal your heartbreak. I am not here to pint fingers, demean or pass blame. I only know in my heart that those who have condemned you should be ashamed. They also have done things wrong that they keep within and hidden. Yet, they want to strip you and take away what, from GOD, you've been given.
My darling child, you still have so very far to go. For you  and the rest of your journey I AM HERE, just so you know. The day I first met you an you were introduced by my son. YOU help pull him through the sorrow that he did overcome. I seen his face when you smiled and looked his way. I could tee that he had truly made a friend on that day. You helped pull him out of the slump he was in. You were not ashamed or embarrassed to be his friend. That is why I am writing this to you. When you read it, remember your stalker and I will be there to help pull you through.
You don't have to worry about being stabbed in the back. That is not a trait I have and I AM PROUD of that. I treat others as Jesus would do. That is why HE sent me here for you.
People really don't know words can cut, wound and kill. That's s9omething it takes time to let those hurtful things heal. YOU have to LEARN, no matter how painful, that you have to FORGIVE. That's the only way you will get through this and live. I know this for I was also in your place. Yet, I know and have felt OUR HEAVENLY FATHER's GRACE.
Though you are not my child but that of another. I am trying to help you and guide you as a caring MOTHER. To take your life is no the cost, To take the place of what you've lost. There is nothing that will ever be the same, to lose your life in order to heal your pain.
There are people out there, for you , that really love. An do not want you to go to the HEAVENS above. I know and feel in my heart that your time has not come. Only Through PRAYERS, KIND & CARING  WORDS through FAITH IN JESUS THE HURT CAN BE UNDONE. I have HOPE an do honestly BELIEVE in OUR HEAVENLY FATHER Above. Asking his forgiveness into your heart, HE'll clean you white as a dove. HIS LOVE is UNCONDITIONAL and HE IS ALWAYS THERE. In YOUR HEART, YOU can FEEL it and know that HE cares.
I only know what touches my heart and when GOD speaks to me. So I gather paper and pen to write it down for others to see.  I have lived on this earth long enough and have also taken the blamed. Others kicked me when I was very low and they never thought about my pain.

I PRAY for those who CHOOSE WORDS UNWISELY and for others, do not feel. I PRAY for the broken hearts of the victims and that through JESUS they do heal. I AM HERE for ANYONE who THINKS THEIR LIFE ISN'T WORTH LIVING. GOD sent me here for others with a heart that's been very forgiving.
I know that I AM a SINNER but there ISN'T ANYONE WHO DIDN'T SIN. To truly be loved an healed of sorrow and pain, YOU HAVE TO LET JESUS IN.

For YOU, MY DEVIN,
 I know, you are like me and you have been  wronged. And  through this all you will grow strong. Through FAITH, HOPE, LOVE and when you PRAY, YOUR HEART will be mended and be BLESSED to live another day.

YOU have to do this for YOUR LAIKEN MIRACLE, WHOM YOU DID GIVE BIRTH. YOU have to SHOW THEM that THEY DO NOT JUDGE YOUR WORTH. YOU have to STAND TALL and cause TREMORS in OTHERS. FOR NO- ONE WAS MEANT TO RAISE LAIKEN but YOU, HER MOTHER.
WE ALL have t be ACCOUNTABLE for WHAT WE DO. Yet, NEVER THINK NO-ONE is there for YOU. Those things you did and felt can be undone. Just have FAITH and call  on MY BROTHER, JESUS, who is also GOD's SON. He can come into YOUR LIFE an CONDEMN those who are BULLIES. He can also come into YOUR SINNER's HEART and wipe it all clean.

Through HOPE and FAITH HE CAN DO ANY and ALL THINGS when WE PRAY.
BLESSE ARE WE ALL THAT JESUS CAME INTO OUR LIVES AND WE LIVE ANOTHER DAY.

During church yesterday, I was sent a few passages that, with them, I didn't know what to do.


2 Corinthians 12:9,10       
2 Corinthians 13:4-13


Today I wrote this and I know I was meant to send this to you, The GIRL with the MOST BEAUTIFUL SMILE (AKA My DEVIN) who I was asked to PRAY. YOU were weighing on my heart so I had to let you know, I LOVE YOU and HOPE to MEET YOU AGAIN one day.




HOPING and PRAYING that this TOUCHES YOUR HEART and brings only GOD's BLESSINGS this young persons way.

 

 

This  Cinderella lived in a white mansion down the backroad from you right off a highway. MY HOME IS WHERE MY HEART IS especially when I dream and reminisce and FOR EVERYONE DO PRAY!!!!!

 If MY BROTHERS and SISTERS are ever in LOST and need to find their way. HER BEACON WILL BE LIGHTING YOUR LIFE NIGHT OR DAY......

 

Red Bud Blossom
bigheartinsmalltown@aol.com    In JESUS HOLY NAME      AMEN

Breaking Your Spirit

I remember what my oldest aid when they were young and first started school.
"To graduate from where you did, Momma, will be neat and also cool."
You are my first born and then your sister for me to love.
I know from living here 30 years there is NO-ONE to be jealous of.
No one has treated your sibling the way they have treated you.
She's told me what's been going on so I know it is true.
I know you have been BULLIED and PICKED on these past 13 years and they've tried to break your spirit.
But if I spoke to anyone at the school about what was done, they told me it wasn't true and weren't actually hearing it.
There are some teachers up at that school who have hearts of gold.
But there are others, who to you, have been rude and have a heart that is cold.
We are nobodies to those people in that place.
You can tell when they talk to us and the looks on their face.
When you were spoken to by the assistant principal, you told me what he said.
He asked you if you were jealous of the FOOTBALL boys, man they must have big heads.
That person had no right to ask you that question that they did.
He hurt your heart and made you cry, I know, although you did your best to keep it hid.
They have never tried to help you when you were really in need.
They just sat back waiting on you to fail not caring if you do succeed.
As the years passed and they treated you as they have, I will never forget the look on your face.
You looked at me and said "Momma, I will be so happy when I graduate and leave here but I'm not proud it is from this place.
But what they've never realized that they hadn't done.
They failed and will not break the SPIRIT OF MY SON.

I AM PROUD OF WHO YOU ARE AND WHAT YOU HAVE OVERCOME.
I AM HAPPY FOR YOU TO GRADUATE THIS YEAR AND TRUELY
BLESSED YOU ARE MY SON...........................................................

The GOOD OLD DAYS and HOW I was RIASED

The OLD days are just that. There is so much that FUTURE GENERATIONS will not know becasue EVERYONE is so SELFISH and self rightoues that NO-ONE remembers the GOOD OLD DAYS and the VALUES and CALLING that WE all were put ehre for.

 

I am not by no means PERFECT and have never claimed to be but I have always tried to do the right thing.

I have tried to riase my two children to think of others and they know that we support them in what ever they decide to do.  We may not go to church like we should but we KNOW THERE IS A GOD and JESUS LIVES in US so that is ALL WE NEED besides OUR FAMILY. If it wasn't for mine, I wouldn't be who and where I am today. I am TRUELY BLEESED not only to have a gorgeous daughter who is going to be stunner when she is older. I also have a son that is heads above me and shocks the heck out of me at times. Especially when it comes to UNSELFISH GIVING and THINKING of OTHERS.

 

 

will get back to this shortly

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Ticket to HOME!!!!!


HAVE A BLESSED EASTER!!!!!






AMEN!!!!!!

RED BUD BLOSSOM

1-1-2013 what will the NEW YEAR bring??

Well, it is almost the end of the year known as 2013,
Just hanging in with the FAMILY as the NEW YEAR we did bring

I do not plan on making resolutions for GOD is guiding my way,
I leave with HIM a copy my itenerary every night and day

He is the one who wakens me with the morning light of the sun,
He's the one standing alongside me as I do my job until it is done

He's the one who puts me to sleep after I pray every night,
Leaving me the moon and stars as my own personal nightlight.

He's got the WHOLE WORLD in HIS HANDS and DON't YOU FORGET,
GOD needs to be FEARED as well as LOVED or that YOU will regret

TRUST IN JESUS AND BELIEVE IS THE ONLY WAY TO GET TO OUR HEAVENLY FATHER
LOVE THEY NEIGHBOR AS YOUR OWN IS THE ONLY WAY TO GET TO YOUR HEAVENLY HOME
TO SIN EQUALS DEATH THAT IS SO VERY TRUE    THAT IS WHY GOD SENT JESUS TO DIE FOR ME AND YOU


I cannot say that I have never SINNED...that would be a lie. Yet, I have repented for what I have done ad PRAY that GOD answered me. Until the time that I see YOU again along this highway of the year 2013, I PRAY THAT YOU and YOUR FAMILY are BLESSED in whatever GOD for YOU BRINGS!!!!!!

HOPING  THAT ANYONE WHO HAPPENS TO READ THIS ON THS NEW YEARS DAY
IS FOREVER BLESSED AND THAT THEY PASS THIS FORWARD AS THEY TRAVEL ALONG LIFE'S HIGHWAY



will post more a little bit later.........until then    MAY YOU BEBLESSED