Friday, September 27, 2013

BREAKING NEWS from Lemonville, Texas

Breaking NEWS from Lemonville, Tx

My response to this:
just like they aren't supposed to do ALOT  of things they do around there. But when ONE HAND is rubbing the OTHER, they would screw over their BESTFRIENDS mother. They would lie to your face and would stab you in the back, the whole way claiming "I WOULD NEVE DO THAT!!!"
You don't have to worry about them talking to the minority in this town who have no money or name. To them, being one up on someone and their jealousies are just a game. They do not care how OUR town. (there are many SECRETS behind there close doors and in their families. BAD DRUGS, not talking about MaryJane, like METH and ICE are everywhere. One of the judge's from there knows about it...a member of his family has had dealings with it..Ask him....) 
There are many others that are to blame. Yet, I will not say their names. They know who they are when they read this. (Man, are they going to be pissed.) I have always kept my tongue for as long I have had been in this town. Now, here's some truthful gossip that can be SPREAD AROUND.
When you go to your local grocery store, you can get groceries and nowadays, a whole lot more. I know for when I was there I bought groceries but I always got a HUG. If they were paying attention, they would see the ones who are waiting on their drugs. There are some that are hooked on Meth. They are dying a very slow death. Then there is the one known as ICE. This one I know is NOT VERY NICE. I know this more than some others. For it helped to re-incarcerate, my only sibling and brother. Now that I have said what I had to put down. TAKE A SERIOUS LOOK ABOUT OUR TOWN.
As far as the BOND ISSUE is it REALLY FOR YOU or  IS IT FOR THE LOOKS or to get a SUPERINTENDENT who is NEW?? Someone who has never been here before and can be BUDDY-BUDDY with them behind closed doors??  To some I might come across a little jaded.   I know that there are things that need to be upgraded.  Yet  this not the time for the BOND to be passed for OUR TOWN, I write very sadly. For there are, at this moment, others who can not afford it like ME.
BUILD UP YOUR COMMUNITY AROUND/FOR ALL THE CHILDREN not just for those, who in your mind, with them you could win.  BREAK DOWN the BARRIERS and become the SMALL TOWN with the BIG HEART that your sign says. Do you want another Ms. Perez??  Who was only there for the ones with money. SHE didn't give a dang about you nor me.
PRAY with YOUR HEART and I mean LISTEN to what GOD is wanting for YOUR TOWN. Then STAND UP for what you BELIEVE in and DON'T BACK DOWN.

love, me

Tuesday, September 24, 2013

The Girl with the Most Beautiful SMILE

I am a mother with a daughter of my own. She's no longer a baby. She's 16 and to her almost grown. But she knows no matter what good or bad choices she had made I would always care. I know that my son a few years back, he did try It hurts my heart and has caused a little break. To think of, her life and if it, she could take. I know that my son did a few years back and my daughter said he's tried. BY THE GRACE OF GOD MY CHILD DIDN'T DIE. We don't have money or "family name" in this town But I know how people are and how they will run you down.



Dear LORD,   

This is weighing very heavy on my heart this very day. Please be with me as I do pray.
"the GIRL with the most BEAUTIFUL SMILE" is wanting to end her life. Along these 19 years she has had too much sorrow and strife. She lost her parents when she was a baby. The loss is still so powerful she's afraid to let any one in neither you or me.

In order for my ticket to heaven, I just gotta send this out to My Devin.







she is such a wonderful young person who was born with a FAMILY NAME. But now she's the blacksheep because she brought them shame. She would not conform to what her parents wanted her to be. Now she's being shunned and kept out of the shade of Her FAMILY TREE.

When she lost her parents some of my Devin's family took her in. I don't know the whole story but this is where I will begin.

Not long after having her baby, right after graduating from high school. Her family tried to take her baby away and called her a fool. They accused her of things that were false like doing drugs.
Then took her soul away without any kisses or hugs. Now she's feeling like she cannot be strong. For everytime she turns around, someone tells her she is wrong. Only she can heal the hurt from this heartbreak and go on. You do not need to take your life, dear one, for you are not alone. There are things beyo9n our control that we must go through. Through the hills and valleys OUR LORD is never far from you. I do not sit in judgement of your error or your mistakes. I am only here to help guide you and heal your heartbreak. I am not here to pint fingers, demean or pass blame. I only know in my heart that those who have condemned you should be ashamed. They also have done things wrong that they keep within and hidden. Yet, they want to strip you and take away what, from GOD, you've been given.
My darling child, you still have so very far to go. For you  and the rest of your journey I AM HERE, just so you know. The day I first met you an you were introduced by my son. YOU help pull him through the sorrow that he did overcome. I seen his face when you smiled and looked his way. I could tee that he had truly made a friend on that day. You helped pull him out of the slump he was in. You were not ashamed or embarrassed to be his friend. That is why I am writing this to you. When you read it, remember your stalker and I will be there to help pull you through.
You don't have to worry about being stabbed in the back. That is not a trait I have and I AM PROUD of that. I treat others as Jesus would do. That is why HE sent me here for you.
People really don't know words can cut, wound and kill. That's s9omething it takes time to let those hurtful things heal. YOU have to LEARN, no matter how painful, that you have to FORGIVE. That's the only way you will get through this and live. I know this for I was also in your place. Yet, I know and have felt OUR HEAVENLY FATHER's GRACE.
Though you are not my child but that of another. I am trying to help you and guide you as a caring MOTHER. To take your life is no the cost, To take the place of what you've lost. There is nothing that will ever be the same, to lose your life in order to heal your pain.
There are people out there, for you , that really love. An do not want you to go to the HEAVENS above. I know and feel in my heart that your time has not come. Only Through PRAYERS, KIND & CARING  WORDS through FAITH IN JESUS THE HURT CAN BE UNDONE. I have HOPE an do honestly BELIEVE in OUR HEAVENLY FATHER Above. Asking his forgiveness into your heart, HE'll clean you white as a dove. HIS LOVE is UNCONDITIONAL and HE IS ALWAYS THERE. In YOUR HEART, YOU can FEEL it and know that HE cares.
I only know what touches my heart and when GOD speaks to me. So I gather paper and pen to write it down for others to see.  I have lived on this earth long enough and have also taken the blamed. Others kicked me when I was very low and they never thought about my pain.

I PRAY for those who CHOOSE WORDS UNWISELY and for others, do not feel. I PRAY for the broken hearts of the victims and that through JESUS they do heal. I AM HERE for ANYONE who THINKS THEIR LIFE ISN'T WORTH LIVING. GOD sent me here for others with a heart that's been very forgiving.
I know that I AM a SINNER but there ISN'T ANYONE WHO DIDN'T SIN. To truly be loved an healed of sorrow and pain, YOU HAVE TO LET JESUS IN.

For YOU, MY DEVIN,
 I know, you are like me and you have been  wronged. And  through this all you will grow strong. Through FAITH, HOPE, LOVE and when you PRAY, YOUR HEART will be mended and be BLESSED to live another day.
YOU have to do this for YOUR LAIKEN MIRACLE, WHOM YOU DID GIVE BIRTH. YOU have to SHOW THEM that THEY DO NOT JUDGE YOUR WORTH. YOU have to STAND TALL and cause TREMORS in OTHERS. FOR NO- ONE WAS MEANT TO RAISE LAIKEN but YOU, HER MOTHER.
WE ALL have t be ACCOUNTABLE for WHAT WE DO. Yet, NEVER THINK NO-ONE is there for YOU. Those things you did and felt can be undone. Just have FAITH and call  on MY BROTHER, JESUS, who is also GOD's SON. He can come into YOUR LIFE an CONDEMN those who are BULLIES. He can also come into YOUR SINNER's HEART and wipe it all clean.

Through HOPE and FAITH HE CAN DO ANY and ALL THINGS when WE PRAY.
BLESSE ARE WE ALL THAT JESUS CAME INTO OUR LIVES AND WE LIVE ANOTHER DAY.

During church yesterday, I was sent a few passages that, with them, I didn't know what to do.


2 Corinthians 12:9,10       
2 Corinthians 13:4-13


Today I wrote this and I know I was meant to send this to you, The GIRL with the MOST BEAUTIFUL SMILE (AKA My DEVIN) who I was asked to PRAY. YOU were weighing on my heart so I had to let you know, I LOVE YOU and HOPE to MEET YOU AGAIN one day.




HOPING and PRAYING that this TOUCHES YOUR HEART and brings only GOD's BLESSINGS this young persons way.





 

 
This  Cinderella lived in a white mansion down the backroad from you right off a highway. MY HOME IS WHERE MY HEART IS especially when I dream and reminisce and FOR EVERYONE DO PRAY!!!!!






 If MY BROTHERS and SISTERS are ever in LOST and need to find their way. HER BEACON WILL BE LIGHTING YOUR LIFE NIGHT OR DAY......
 


Red Bud Blossom
bigheartinsmalltown@aol.com    In JESUS HOLY NAME      AMEN

Tuesday, September 17, 2013

Breaking Your Spirit

I remember what my oldest aid when they were young and first started school.
"To graduate from where you did, Momma, will be neat and also cool."
You are my first born and then your sister for me to love.
I know from living here 30 years there is NO-ONE to be jealous of.
No one has treated your sibling the way they have treated you.
She's told me what's been going on so I know it is true.
I know you have been BULLIED and PICKED on these past 13 years and they've tried to break your spirit.
But if I spoke to anyone at the school about what was done, they told me it wasn't true and weren't actually hearing it.
There are some teachers up at that school who have hearts of gold.
But there are others, who to you, have been rude and have a heart that is cold.
We are nobodies to those people in that place.
You can tell when they talk to us and the looks on their face.
When you were spoken to by the assistant principal, you told me what he said.
He asked you if you were jealous of the FOOTBALL boys, man they must have big heads.
That person had no right to ask you that question that they did.
He hurt your heart and made you cry, I know, although you did your best to keep it hid.
They have never tried to help you when you were really in need.
They just sat back waiting on you to fail not caring if you do succeed.
As the years passed and they treated you as they have, I will never forget the look on your face.
You looked at me and said "Momma, I will be so happy when I graduate and leave here but I'm not proud it is from this place.
But what they've never realized that they hadn't done.
They failed and will not break the SPIRIT OF MY SON.

I AM PROUD OF WHO YOU ARE AND WHAT YOU HAVE OVERCOME.
I AM HAPPY FOR YOU TO GRADUATE THIS YEAR AND TRUELY
BLESSED YOU ARE MY SON...........................................................